Trust and Obey....

This month and a half has sure gone by like a crazy whirlwind.... since things are slowing down a bit I figured that I would write from the beginning to start things off! 

It's amazing how God works.... He is absolutely Almighty and powerful and there are no words to describe Him. He is so Big yet He still cares for us who are small and insignificant. He asks us to trust in Him and give our all to Him....yet how often do we as Christians really do that? We say we trust in God but when it boils down to it.... most of the time we try to solve things on our own and make an even bigger mess of things.  Nate and I just recently went through a testing period where we had to decide whether to trust that God would provide or if we should do things on our own strength. 

It all started back in March, both of us were discussing after a very in depth bible study and we came to the realization that we hadn't been through many trials together. Well we have... but not recently. And since we know that trials are meant to refine us and bring us closer to Christ... we really felt heavily that we wanted that and so we prayed that God would draw us to Him. At the time, I was pregnant and we had just gone through a long winter of realizing that it was time to move out of our tiny apartment that was starting to bordeline on being cramped. We prayed about what we should do .... and in midst of our praying we felt very strongly that God wanted us to give our landlords the two months notice at the beginning of April. My due date was April 1st. Cuts it short just a little. 

So here we were... April 1st..... no sign of labour yet and Nate had just gotten home at 4. We said a final prayer for peace in our decision.... then Nate headed up with our last months rent and notice. An hour goes by and I realized what I had been feeling for an hour might be labour. 12 hours later, Theo was born. 

Needless to say that, we were a bit preoccupied and overjoyed that we didn't give our circumstances much thought for about a month. But then for me the stress and anxiety started to hit May 1st when I was trying to pack but was unsure where it would all be going.... a storage place or a house. 

To make a long story short.... we were three weeks away from move out day with an idea to rent a house but no prospects in mind..... when it was mentioned to us that we should buy a house. We went to check out our financial situation with the mortgage people... not expecting much ... to later finding out we were actually doing very well and we could be approved for a mortgage to buy a house. 

We went to look for houses the following weekend... only looked at five.... but the one that stood out was the very first one. It was perfect.... almost like God had handpicked it! So we prayed and decided to put in an offer. No one had put in an offer so we were excited for the prospect of getting this house. Then we hit our first roadblock... someone else had put in an offer too and we only had one shot to get this. We got accepted and later found out that the owner only decided on our offer cuz our closing date was sooner! What a miracle! 

Well.... lets say that the whole three weeks.... we were constantly hit with roadblocks like that! We had prayed that God would show us if this was the right course and that He would hinder anything against his will. It almost seemed like the issues we faced were His way of testing us and saying," Do you really trust me? Do you?"  He wanted us on our knees crying out to Him and drawing closer. And I tell you.... there was one night where me and Nate were a wreck because we thought our situation would not get us the house. We were absolutely on our knees.... and it felt good drawing close to our Heavenly Father together. And you know.... He came through.... not in our timing though. It was always right up to the last second... or even after certain deadlines. And sometimes not in the way we would have every imagined! 

I think some people thought us crazy when we told them the situation we were in and then when we bought a house in three weeks.... but you know .... we realized small miracles in that! If we hadn't taken that leap of faith there were certain things that would have gone differently. For starters.... we might not have gotten the house because our closing date was for the end of May.

Oh how good it is to trust in our Saviour, especially when he has our best interests at heart and provides us with exactly what we need. Not what we want.....but what we NEED!

Through that whole trial, I really clung to God's word and worshipped with music. I'll leave with a song that really blessed my heart and speaks of how only Jesus is enough to get us through.


All That I Need ~ Christy Nockels

Asking where You are Lord, wondering where You've been
Is like standing in a hurricane trying to find the wind
Hoping for Your mercy to meet me where I am 
Is forgetting that your thoughts for me outnumber the sand

You fill the sun with morning light
You bent the moon to lead the night
You clothed the lillies bright and beautiful

You're already all I need
Already everything that I could hope for 
You're already all I need
You've already set me, already making me more like you
You're already all I need
Jesus, You're already all I need.

Walking through this life without your freedom in my heart
Is like holding onto shackles taht You have torn apart
So remind me of your promises and all that You have done
In this world I will have trouble, but You have overcome

And every gift that I receive, You determined just for me
But nothing I desire compares to You

In your fullness, You're my all in all
In your healing, I'm forever made whole
In your freedom, Your love overflows and carries me
You carry me, yes You carry me, You carry me